Today was the first time I ever experiences a fear of leaving the house.....I stood at my door staring outside ready to leave to go teach. But I could not by any means force myself to go out the door, I stood there for a moment wondering what in the world is going on? I have set foot outside these doors time and time again for the last 9 months, but now everything about the outside world made me very nervous. I was fearing what was out in the world, I was feeling completely uncappable of facing it all and feeling like a failure. I then asked myself is this me hitting culture shock? I stood there for another half a second (all these thought processes are going very fast in my head) Then asked myself or is this Satan trying to stop me from the Lord has in store for me today? That struck something inside me and it made me mad......so I prayed and told Satan to back off and fear could not grip me. I was then able to go with a little less fear, there was still something gripping me and maybe it is a bit of culture shock but satan for sure had his hand in it. But it is a good thing with the Lord on my side I am stronger than the fear this world may try to enstill in me.......When things get hard look to the Lord! His strength oh so much better than our own!
